WARNING - Depression and anxiety.



I'm really sorry, but I have the need to express (or rant) my problems on the internet. I feel like such an obnoxious netizen... LOL, kidding.


Next time, I WILL POST A HAPPIER JOURNAL ENTRY.

I feel so confused right now about college. I know I have so many journal entries related to college and all my worries about it, but I think this time I have thought too much about it.

I don't know if I should really take up Fine Arts (Advertising). The main reasons why I wanted to take Fine Arts: I LOVE ART. I don't want to waste my knowledge about it. It makes me happy.

I talked to my parents, sister, friends, classmates, and even posted in a forum. And yet it doesn't seem to help me.

Why am I not sure about taking this course? Because of our financial status. I'm really scared that I might end up being jobless and that I won't be able to support myself and my parents when I grow up. There are only a few job opportunities here in our place and most people have said that fine arts graduates usually have a hard time applying for a job here in our place. Well, maybe in some places it's just okay, but not here.

So, I thought I might just take a different course. A course that is "in demand" that it would be easy for me to have a job and earn money. After that, I might try to take up fine arts. Another problem is that I don't know what "in demand" course I would like to take up.

I don't know which of these can make me happy. Of course, I know that art makes me happy, even if I know I'm not that skillful at it. But there are so many things to consider about life. My mind feels so heavy and cluttered . (Gah, I feel like some kind of emo drama queen or something. )

I'm always worried and depressed these days. I hope it's just PMS (lol.)



I'M SO SORRY ABOUT THIS NEGATIVE JOURNAL ENTRY.

I wish funny random things would happen to me now...

Next time, I WILL write a lighter and more positive journal entry.

(don't feel like checking my grammatical errors. )


HAPPY THOUGHT -> I R LIKING TEH TEMPORARY SKINS! Hahaha~ [link]